How do I fail with purpose?

One of my earliest memories that I have of failing is when I was learning to ride my bike. I was so afraid of falling that I ended up not braking in time, slammed into a curb and fell on the grass face first.

Failing is such an ugly word.

The word itself has such a negative connotation.

I have slowly learned throughout the years that failing is just a part of life, it makes you the person that you are today.

In school, I remember my first time ever failing a test in Geometry and thinking that it was the end of the world. I even tried to hide my progress report from my parents

I think the worst I have ever felt about failing was my sophomore year of high school. My school had implemented a testing system in which you had to pass all history tests in the semester in order to graduate. If you failed one test, you were done.

I was very stressed out at the time and I ended up getting the answers to one of the tests from a friend. What I did not know, is that the same answers were being circulated to almost every other sophomore in class. I used the answers, as almost everyone else did, and got caught cheating.

I remember feeling the lowest of low, feeling as if I let everyone down. They called my parents and said that I would have to take the test over again in a room with just the teacher,  I remember feeling like a criminal. I passed with an A the second time around, but I think the biggest accomplishment that year, I learned I would never cheat again.

Failing happens so many times, but here I am, my world has not ended.

Failing with purpose is when you know that you might fail at an objective but you go for it anyway. You do not let fear take you, you set a goal and attempt at achieving it and gain something in return.

Recently a new position opened up at work. I have only been with the company for a year and I knew that I was going to be up against people that had more experience. I was afraid to show my interest in the position because I knew that there was a big chance that I was not going to get it.

I decided then and there that even if I did fail, I was going to go through the experience and process of applying internally.

I submitted my resume, practiced my presentation, studied my equipment and awaited the day I had to present.

When I was done I thought I did amazing. I was so happy that I had practiced for so many days and I felt like all my efforts had paid off. I knew in my head that I had this position, I knew that I had done everything in my power to achieve this goal.

I didn’t.

I was up against 6 other people.

As I sat in the room with the managers telling me that they loved my presentation but they decided to go with other people all I could think of was, what did I do wrong?  I thanked them for the opportunity to show them what I had to offer and asked them to consider me for other like positions in the future.

I failed.

As I sit here, almost 8 hours after I heard the news I now see that I failed for a reason. I failed in order to become better, in order to want it more, to need it more, and to appreciate it more once it is mine.

I will let this experience along with all my other experiences become the part of me that perseveres.

I will not give up, and I will continue to fail with purpose.



What are my 5 Goals For My First Blogging Conference?

Tomorrow I leave for my first blogging conference. To say that I am nervous is an understatement.

People ask me why I am nervous and to be honest the main reason is because it is the first time that I am going to be around so many influencers and brands at once.
I consider myself a newbie. Even though I have written my own blogs and I have written for different organizations that I have been involved in, I feel like this will be a very different opportunity.
I have set a few goals for myself just to ease off the nerves a little bit.


Thursday Workout : Watch “1 Mile In Home Walk!” on YouTube

Just did this workout because I wanted to start off slow and then get to the calorie burning workouts by next week. It actually made me sweat! Feeling good this morning.

Make sure you try it out if you’re trying to slowly get into working out again. This is literally just walking but it makes your heart rate go up.Try it out.

Today is my Day 1


NYE and I was trying to look all cute.

So far 2015 has been… well, sick. I spent the first 5 days of my year in bed with a terrible sinus infection.  Everyday I felt like it was getting worse and I was at the point where I thought the whole year I would be spending in bed. With the help of anti-biotics and my lovely boyfriend who nursed me back to health I am at  90% as I write this.

This year I would like to focus on a few things. First off, I would like to focus on my career. I would like to take all necessary steps to start graduate school. Second, I would  like to focus on a healthier lifestyle along with my boyfriend I want us both to live long and healthy lives and our first step should be to be more active and eat better than what we are used to. Lastly, I would like to focus on writing at least once  a week on my blog. I constantly complain about not having time, but I have an hour lunch every day and I will take that time to write.

Ryan trying to get away from my germs.
Ryan trying to get away from my germs.

This week:
– I will focus on one chapter of the CBEST book that I have been putting off studying. By March I should be ready to take the CBEST.

– I will eat a Vegan Before 6 Diet (VB6) and since I am still recovering I will focus on doing only 2 days of cardio. Also, I have joined a Diet bet which should help with motivation.

– I will encourage my boyfriend to eat healthy and exercise at least twice this week.

I hope you all keep reading and let’s work towards encouraging each other to live
better lives